Real Question?

What would it take for us to feel like us?

Let me rephrase... what would it take for the woman screaming inside to be released?

The person I miss, I want to be, the girl I used to be. Better yet the woman I should've become from the beginning.

Does it ever get better? Does the feeling go away? I JUST WANT TO LIVE MY LIFE! But is that I'm missing? These highs and lows are draining and now that I'm aware of them makes me even more crazy.

So, how do I shut it off?

Manifest, pray, mediate, believe I've done it all.

I JUST WANT TO BREATHE! Never understood what the hype was about to do certain things. Never really understood a lot of things honestly. I went with the flow until it goes wrong. It usually does.

What would it take to stay on one level? To wake up and really mean that I'm okay. To actually believe my own words I tell people. Yeah I'm fine, nah I'm good, it's was okay...

So many things I want to do. Some many plans so little faith.

I think I've fallen hard enough once to know what rock bottom looks like. Yet half of me still stays there, stuck at the bottom lost.

Fighting for life is nothing compare to fighting with your own demons.

What would it take for us to feel like us?