My Stress, My Life

"I miss being a kid with no stress, no worries, or a care in the world."

Today's blog is more so a poem. Basically updates on what I been dealing with on a day to day basis.

The stress in my life is funny

Funny to point that I cry alone in the dark

Its one obstacle after another large leaps into no where

Where do I even start, I forgot how it all began

Appointments and applying for government assistance

Reenrolling in school and applying for jobs left and right

I want it to stop, stop the calls, the visits, the questions

The stress in my life is awkward

Awkward in a way that it gives my anxiety

I feel funny, my breathing is fast no its shallow I cant tell

I freaking out it's to much, it's dark

Open your eyes silly it's just you in me

But, But, But... shhh... just talk

Wait I'm just crazy it's all in my head

The stress in my life is painful

So painful I cry in the shower so no one can hear

Painful enough to scream at the top of my lungs but in my head

So many ways, so many outs, but I choose to stay

The pain is unbearable scrap scrap scrap the sound of my skin

A nice cold bath well do just breathe in

The stress in my life is useful

Useful in a way it helps me create

It reminds me to stop, scream, and cry we I need to

It's useful to me because I'm use to it

Yes the stress has taken over my life but it's making me stronger

Stress is my life and my life is stressed

So the reason I wrote this blog as a poem is because I wanted you all to see what goes on behind closed doors. This is how I express myself through poems or short stories. With everything currently happening in my life now all I do is sleep and I hate that. I've dealt with a lot in the past few years and I'm still dealing with the past it's self. Of course I'm afraid to put myself out without trying to seem to crazy. But I am willing to do it if it helps others. I am a fighter.

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